A Season of Waiting

This is the time of year when the nights are longest. There was a time in my life when I felt broken due to expectations of others. I lived from the “outside in” always looking at goals, results, and numbers. I began to rely more on myself rather than God and I lost touch of the unique person God created. I felt isolated and lonely. I stopped singing, playing, and listening to the silence. I was in a dark, cold, distant place.

I think of the still, silent chrysalis where the butterfly’s head, body, and wings take shape in the dark. I, too, was in a cocoon. Suffering from daily migraines, I couldn’t hear God’s voice because I thought I was in control.

Through contemplative prayer, I allowed myself to become vulnerable so God could enter into my despair. And that is when hope began to shine through the cracks of my dry soul.

Nothing in all creation is so like God as stillness. ~Meister Eckhart

Be still before the Lord, and wait patiently for him.  Psalm 37:7