Lazarus Saturday

I enjoy learning about different cultures and traditions through baking bread. Today I baked Lazarakia (“Little Lazaruses”) shaped to resemble men wrapped in burial cloths. These buns use spices such as mahlepi (the ground pit of a sour cherry), Greek masticha (a resin gathered from the Mediterranean mastic tree), and cloves for eyes. In order to maintain rules of the Lenten fast, no eggs or dairy products are used. Orthodox Christians eat this bread on Lazarus Saturday – today – to celebrate the miracle of Jesus raising Lazarus from the dead.

In the Gospel of John, where the Lazarus account is found, Jesus’ miracle of bringing Lazarus back to life and his later return to Bethany to visit Lazarus and his sisters are the last recorded events before the Lord’s journey to Jerusalem on Palm Sunday and his subsequent arrest and crucifixion. In commemorating the miracle of Lazarus on the day before Holy Week begins, the Orthodox calendar reminds us that this “first Easter,” as Lazarus’ resurrection is sometimes called, foreshadows the miracle to come, giving us a foretaste of Easter joy that can carry us through Holy Week. ~Beth Bevis

If you’re dying to try Lazarakia, come to the choir room between services on Sunday. The choir members may let you sample one, but be prepared to sing with us!

Jesus said, “I am the resurrection and the life. Those who believe in me, even though they die, will live, and everyone who lives and believes in me will never die.” – John 11:25-26

Rush of Wind

Yesterday I wrote about breath and Spirit. Today I finished reading Chocolat, which illustrates connections to wind, the change of seasons and how we as individuals and communities change. And there is plenty of cacao described in detail inviting me to imagine its alluring smell and tempting me to take a bite out of the book.

When Chocolat was finished, I moved on to the next book in line, The Alchemist, which our son gave to me for my birthday. I have only begun, but already it speaks of journey, change, personal calling and the language of the soul. My kind of book! The main character’s name is Santiago, reminiscent of a concert I attended a few weeks ago which painted a musical picture of the Pilgrimage to Santiago and our journey of personal transformation along the way.

As the March wind blows outside tonight I wonder where I will journey next.

The wind blows where it chooses, and you hear the sound of it, but you do not know where it comes from or where it goes. So it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit. -John 3:8

Ruach

When I first dated my husband, I knew I’d have to learn to ski since he grew up in Vermont. Attempting a slope too steep for my inexperience, when my skis carried me too quickly to stop, I merely … fell over… and over… and over. By the end of the day, the staff called me Snow White (unaware that my maiden name is “White”). No explanation needed.

Over the years, my technique improved enough that I attempted to relax and enjoy the rhythm of the slope. One day while skiing, I tried to practice breathing and praying in rhythm. “Breath prayer”.

I invite you to try it: Settle into a slower breathing rhythm; praying in and out words that speak to you such as: “Holy Spirit… fill me”, then repeat the phrase with each breath, in and out. The possibilities are endless, but other ideas are: “Give me strength… O Christ”; “Teach me patience… gracious God”; “Hold me… in your love”; “Healing God… I hope in you”.

I love this type of prayer because it is short and said or thought in a single breath. Depending on the circumstances, it changes according to your deep desires of the moment. Over time, I experience the Spirit praying in me. In Hebrew, the words breath and spirit are the same word, “ruach”.

Many spiritual traditions have found that being attentive to our breathing is a helpful way to become centered or focused on our inner world. Breathing attentively, at an easy, regular pace, slows us down and calms our rushing mind and body. ~Joyce Rupp

The Spirit helps us in our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we ought, but that very Spirit intercedes with sighs too deep for words. And God, who searches the heart, knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. –Romans 8:26-27

Evolution

Today was the first full day of spring. With this, I marvel at the landscape changes and think about creation and new growth. With each new season I reflect on my spiritual growth. Some years I notice more change than others. Seasons of stillness test my patience, but I have faith that God is transforming me into the person I am meant to be.

If being the image of God is at the heart of evolution in Christ, then the spiritual life is essential to Christian evolution. A dynamic interior spirit must be at the heart of change. Change is not what happens outside us; rather, change must first take root within us. . . . Just as the world of nature has an inner freedom to be itself, so too Christian life. ~Ilia Delio

Blessing

I recently “met” someone whose husband was the superintendent of my middle school. She looked very familiar to me, so I asked and we filled in the pieces of the story. She is also a musician and remembered my performances at school as a student. Now, forty years later, we belong to the same music club. Music has blessed me in many ways, and so have people. The more I remember those who have blessed me in my life, the more I strive to be a blessing to others. I can do this by simply listening and being present to each person I encounter. This is not easy, especially when I’m busy. But when I am attentive to blessing others with a listening ear or a caring touch, I feel honored in return. Sometimes this is felt many years later, but God’s time is different than my time. I have learned to have faith in “the quiet eternal.”

In his book, To Bless the Space Between Us, Irish author John O’ Donohue speaks of a quiet light that shines in every heart. He says, “It draws no attention to itself, though it is always secretly there. The quiet eternal that dwells in our souls is silent and subtle; in the activity of blessing it emerges to embrace and nurture us.”

Connectedness

I recently joined social media. Reconnecting can be wonderful, and stories shared help me understand my friends and family more completely. When I made my final Benedictine oblation I chose the name of a patron saint after much thought and prayer. I felt a connection to Hildegard of Bingen for many reasons. Inspired by her faithfulness and life, Hildegard became my chosen name. A Medieval Christian mystic, St. Hildegard communicated creation spirituality through music, art, poetry, medicine, gardening, and reflection on nature. She saw all things in the light of God through the five senses and offers assurance that there is more to God’s creation than what our limited senses can perceive. Richard Rohr states, “She recognized that there is also an inherent connection between the physical world and the divine Presence. This connection translates into an inner energy that is the soul and seed of everything, an inner voice calling you to ‘Become who you are, become all that you are.'” When I move in a direction where I feel God is leading me, I feel great joy. My heart doesn’t lie.

O Holy Spirit, you are the mighty way in which every thing that is in the heavens, in the earth, and under the earth, is penetrated with connectedness, penetrated with relatedness. ~Hildegard of Bingen

Led

If you walk in the darkness, you do not know where you are going. John 12:35

Today I had the pleasure of collaborating in music with our daughter conducting and the Chancel Choir singing Stephen Paulus’ beautiful anthem, “Carol of the Hill.” The choir, well prepared, did fine in rehearsal this morning, however without a leader, nuances could be missed. I would not have been much help with my hands busy at the organ. The choir watching the conductor and the organ responding, the music breathed and took shape with dynamics and phrasing. We need each other!

When I sit at the organ it can be a lonely place. Surrounded by the choir and church community we support each other. An energy is felt that cannot be explained. God is with us and for us.

Vicia

I can’t stop thinking about the special dinner we recently enjoyed at Vicia. When I asked them to tell me about their sourdough bread and they replied, “We mill our own wheat,” I knew the rest of the meal would be memorable. I loved the environmental atmosphere; “one” with nature, and the super fresh herbs and vegetables immensely pleased my palate. I especially appreciated the amazing mingling of ingredients. It was a fulfilling experience for all of my senses.

Psychologist and wilderness guide, Bill Plotkin, believes that to “save our souls” we need to reconnect with nature. To rediscover who we truly are—and who our brothers and sisters are—we must become intimate with our natural surroundings. The wisdom of nature can’t be understood with our thinking mind. We have to experience it with our being and let it speak to us through all our senses. -Richard Rohr

Birthday Joy

Much of what I love was bundled into today. My birthday began with Darjeeling tea, quiche and currant scones with clotted cream at The London Tea Room, then a chocolate tour where I received the real live cocoa bean pod pictured above (my new maraca), a quick trip around the corner to Park Avenue coffee where we learned about air-roasted coffee, then an amazing dinner at Vicia, a restaurant I’ve been looking forward to visiting. And best of all I got to spend the day with my two “boys” as I look forward to our daughter arriving tomorrow. On top of that I practiced the organ at church and my family gave me an iPad so I don’t have to wear out my thumbs writing blogposts each day. What a day! So much to be thankful for.

Steeped

The submerged lemons are now set and the vodka a sunny yellow; sufficiently suffused!

As I sat in morning prayer today the first light of the sun was spilling onto my face. I felt immersed in God’s love.

The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? –Psalm 27:1